I left the door ajar for a while
Not out of hope but of denial
Poetic delusion bound to dissolve
Now I’ve closed it
Its lock rusty with tears
Its key close to my heart
Out of reach
poetry scraps #18
2025.02.10poetry scraps #17
2025.02.09As I walked through the depths of hell
I did not look back like Orpheus
I stayed true
A mantra in my mind
That this was a beginning
Trudging in the shadows towards the light
Bloodied knees and unbroken resolve
I snatched it all back
My sanity
My life
My love
My hope
I did not go through the depths of hell
To regain my tranquility
So I would lose it now
To an undeserving heart
I keep going
Stumbling maybe
But forward
Unchained
bright skies
2025.01.30What a whirlwind this January was. The clouds seem to clear for the first time in very long, and the future is looking bright as hell. Such an unexpected 180 turn, it makes me dizzy just thinking about it. My heart is full of gratitude and renewed strength. Bring it 2025. đŞâď¸

Pictured above, such a pleasure to be back on stage yesterday at the Comedy Clubhouse for Midweek crisis comedy! Set #11 and counting!
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2025.01.25Well, 2025 started with a most unexpected plot twist. Yes, I’ll remain cryptic on purpose sorrynotsorry.
“Incorruptible” – hilarious & irreverent (a review)
2025.01.20Show: “Incorruptible”
Date: 17/01/2025
Venue: El Tinta Roja
Rating: 4.8/5

Welcome to Priseaux, France, in the dark times of ca. 1250 AD. And if, when I said âPriseauxâ, your first reaction was a befuddled âWhere is that?â, youâre not alone! In this godforsaken and forgotten monastery, the times are dark indeed: calamities keep happening, and Saint Foy, the local saint, hasn’t worked a miracle in years. In short, things are decidedly dire⌠until the monks receive the visit of a one-eyed minstrel, who shows them how to get out of their predicament, and even maybe get the attention of the Pope himself!
The allure of âIncorruptibleâ lies in its irreverence and dark humor, and I was all here for it. The actors waltz through themes like the endurance of faith, or the worshipping of relics â whether or not they are really what they claim to be. Without realizing, we find ourselves in the middle of outright graverobbing, desecration, and deception, and laughing about it!
The entire cast shines in their respective roles, starting with Patrick Beverley as Abbot Charles who uses his faith as a crutch against lifelong guilt regarding sawdust-filled bread (itâs a long story!). Alex Jacob plays Brother Martin, who slowly but surely embraces his inner deviousness after years of frustration with his vows of poverty. Kurtis Bright chews the scenery with gusto as Jack, a surprisingly layered character, unapologetically mischievous but still upholding his moral code. Alice Russo and Victoria Russell bicker as mother and daughter trying to benefit from the whole situation, while BĂźnyamin Cicek and Matthew Murtha play hapless novices Olf and Felix, who try their best to follow their superiors’ shenanigans. Finally, Mara Ambrosie steals the show in her brief but powerful appearance as Abbess Agatha, whoâs got a thing or two to say to Charles!

This is the first production by the Barcelona Community Theatre Group, a new theatre troupe on the Barcelona scene, and they certainly start with a bang with âIncorruptibleâ. While there was the odd muddled line or timing in certain entrances or effects, understandable for a new company in their first production, it did not detract from a thoroughly enjoyable performance. All the actors, most of whom are already experienced comics in their own right, bring their own personal touch to make their character unique and memorable. Beverley, Bright and Russo share credits as co-directors and I canât wait to see what else they have in store.
Conclusions
Overall, I heartily recommend catching a performance of this play. The Abbey of Priseaux will gladly take your coin in exchange for a memorable evening! The next showings will be on January 24th, February 7th and February 14th at the MetamĂłrfosis Theater in Barcelona. Donât miss it!
Grab your tickets here (this link opens a new website)
2025, the year I look like ME
2025.01.18In one of these “invest in yourself” kind of things, back in December I (finally!) booked a makeup class to learn how to do it from a professional.
That class was today. And OH MY GOD.

The gender euphoria is strong with this one! I finally feel like I look like ME. I’m incredibly happy with this and very excited about practicing all the techniques I learned today!
And go visit the wonderful Mari Cornejo’s Instagram, she’s a true gem.
(im)balance
2025.01.052024 was probably the most exhilarating and the most difficult year in my entire life. A year of love and heartbreak, a year of stage fright and acclaim, a year of Pride and getting more comfortable in my queer identity…
⢠I got the semicolon tattoo I’d thought about for years
⢠I started doing stand up comedy and now have seven shows under my belt (#8 next thursday 9th)
⢠I got a “Best Audience Member” award at the Barcelona Comedy Awards 2024 (this one cracks me up!)
⢠I had my ears pierced
⢠I went out dressed full fem and went to Pride and rode a float
⢠I go out dressed more fem/less masc and feel more and more comfortable with it every time
⢠I fell in love with the wrong person despite my best efforts not to, and it caused me the most intense and difficult heartbreak I’ve ever had to go through in my entire life (this is not hyperbole. 2024, you win that fucking crown you bitch).
⢠And to my friend, I’m sorry that I couldn’t do better.
⢠I made absolutely wonderful new friendships and surrounded myself with the most amazing chosen family.
This year, I intend to continue on this path of healing, healing my heart and soul, healing my broken relationship with myself, regaining self-love and acceptance, doing theater, going to more shows and concerts…
2025, you better be different. I no longer hold hope for relationships, or romance, or anything beyond surviving and getting better. 2024 taught me I can only count on myself to do that. The loss I’ve experienced has scarred me for many months to come, but I’ve survived before. I will survive again.
Even if, as BlĂź Eyes put it, healing fucking hurts sometimes.
set #7 (I needed this)
2024.12.26
Finishing the year with an unexpected SEVENTH SET thanks to the Comedy Clubhouse’s Midweek Crisis show!! đ Thank you Mila for hosting and Mara for the picture!
I needed this so much. Having driven back home just a few hours earlier after Christmas with the family, doing this show felt like being back with my tribe. The comedy community in Barcelona is amazing and I love every single one of these wonderful people. â¤ď¸
let it be (poetry scraps #7)
2024.12.24Let it be
Let my soul be your light
Let my tears be your water
Let my arms be your soil
So that you bloom like you deserve
Let it be all that
Have faith again
And find love anew
So that mine was not in vain
y al final fue un adios
2024.12.20These fragments ended up true. I’m so, sorry.